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I see you are all still at it and most seem to be keeping the faith.
I have lost interest in this and most things in my life as my wife of 32 years has decided she wants a divorce soon after I retired.
I have tried to kill myself twice unsuccessfully, the last one using 2 x stanley knives s 2 weeks ago was a close call, cutting both arms across the inside elbow. l. I lost that much blood the medics couldn't get any fluid into me cos every vein they tried collapsed.
They worked on me for 90 mins and in the end they had to drill into my shin bone 3 times to get fluid in that way (I have never screamed so much in my life). It was touch and go if I would survive as my BP dropped to 40/30 and they thought I was going to have a cardiac arrest. I was taken to the trauma unit who managed to get me stable after 4 units of blood transfusion and then had a 1hr operation on my left arm to repair the damage. I have lost 2 stone in weight and now way 9 stone 5lbs.
Previous to this attempt I was admitted to a secure Psychiatric unit for nearly 2 weeks which was probably one of the worst experiences of my life. As I got no therapy and decided to stay in my room virtually 24/7 due to other severely ill patience, some I was scared of.
I am back in my own home and now getting the support I need from the local mental health team. I regretted not dying and told staff in the hospital I wished I was dead. After 3 hrs of grilling 5 days later by two mental health teams they agreed to let me go home as long as someone was with me for the first 4 or 5 nights. One of the psychiatrist’s told me if I tried it again I would be sectioned for a long time.
I have had suicidal thoughts since then but am learning to get over them and am having daily home visits and phone calls from the local mental health team.
I'm not telling you all this for sympathy, just wanted to show you how life can throw some serious curve-balls and things like this forum and share price means diddly squat in the scheme of things. Focus on those around you who you love and spend less time talking ****e on here.
I have no idea what the future holds for me now, it has thrown up everything in the air after working my ass off for 39 years, mostly in very stressful jobs to enable me to pay off the mortgage and pay the bills, send my 2 wonderful. daughters through uni. My wife didn't work for 23 years so I carried the financial burden.
She is the love of my life, I have known her for 36 years and never saw this coming.
So, I hope you all read this and re-evaluate your lives and focus on what is important. I am not sure If I will get through this and don't really care at this stage in my life but I wish you all well.
Peace
Mick.
P.S. - PSTN (old PRI) is being replace by SIP, the issue with BT's offering is it's a nightmare for international customers due to d their many ifferent SIP based products not being able to interwork and local in-country regs.
Ibjj was talking about the length of time for a decision 're bankruptacy, he questioned the SAB's value (quite rigjtly imo) as based on the protracted timeline it does look as though they have had little or no impact. He has always stated his support for Kurt.
Insults and abuse? Try looking back at Suzi's posts and you'll see a few, it's not all ibjj. I am a holder here as you know and see no reason why anyone can't post negative, realistic as well as positive views, it gives the board some balance in my opinion.