Off topic5 Feb 2020 16:11
I don't normally tell people who hold the same stock as me to sell but...
PDMSP just sell them, your position size is larger than you can emotionally handle, not meant as a dig, which implies you are not managing risk at all,, also not meant as a dig.
It is not healthy for you, you are harbouring all this negativity which will just cause you to age faster, put your health at risk and make you a stressed and unlikable person.
Or consider reducing to a size that you are more comfortable with. You will sleep better and go back to enjoying life.